I'm drunk...

I was in great form, til came the reality storm! Is it better to have friends and be resolved to your sadness...to love them and hate them for making you feel wanted and unwanted? Would you prefer to just exist in your boring little bubble..and not let the world in? Deny this chance to exist and just create your own life story? You want it to be a story of your own making, a fairytale..and how can you change yourself? You don't need their approval and you let it be known, but you want their approval..keep it together, nothing must fall, but you build and you build, till you've formed this great wall, and no one could penetrate it, why should they care about you, because it's too much to break through it, and they have their problems too, and you've already settled to be on your own, and that decision means you must go it alone