Collection of Crap

Was it only ok for me to be happy when I knew the outcome was futile...why won't I let myself be happy? Why create complications when it could all be so simple? Maybe being miserable is what makes me most happy..or at least comfortable. It's easy to be afraid and never risk rejection...and I'm safe on my own. I'm resigned to it...no one will ever hurt me again. I'll live in a box if I have to..pun not..possibly intended. Change is good..heehee.

The more I try not to think about it
The more it consumes me,
The more I try to resist it
The more I crave it.
The more I try to live without
The more it exhumes me
The more I try to quell the urge
The more it enslaves me.


Stupid Calendar Phrase #??

When you get to the end of your rope,
tie a knot and hang on.

Which is well an alright quote..>she says begrudgingly<...but being the day that's in it well I thought it was pretty funny. Some people call this the suicide holidays...tossers do. It's one day of the year, a meaningless date, ..I mean if you're alone and unhappy every day's a constant reminder. It's the only day where you shouldn't care...where you can laugh at the misery of those perfect couples at the mercy of the card companies,...tell the one you love with diamonds....so orally isn't good enough anymore. Hahahahahaha